loosing myself?

I don't remember the last time I laughed so hard that I almost cry.
I don't remember the last time I cried for tearing movie.
I don't remember the last time....I was like myself.

I wasn't like this.
I wasn't negative, critical, seriously stupid, and miserable.
I was always happy, laughing, and easy-going.
People change and time goes by.
I know this is me, but I don't know this is really me.
No, I don't want to believe this loser is me.


wow, what a sick blog I started!
should write something different which attract people, not make them depressed.